Complex Question.?

I'm an Arab Egyptian male 19-year-old who couldn't be more different from an Arab Egyptian. I'm Muslim, born and bred, but I ***hate*** Islam. I also hate Arab Egyptian culture and traditions and how primitive they are and how primitive we are. I hate the astonishing stupidity and incompetence of SO many people here. I hate my family for their LITERALLY medieval state of mind. I hate this country and its congestion, corruption, dictatorship, illiteracy, inflation, Islamic fundamentalism, nepotism, noise, pollution, poverty, religious persecution, unemployment…And I don't know how I wound up so different, but I did. I'm an ideological mutation. I find Egypt and Islam vastly inferior to countries, cultures, and peoples who have done so much more and scaled such greater heights. Until recently I was foolish enough to think that the West would accept me not only as a CITIZEN but also as a MEMBER in future, in view of my probable ideas and contributions...And that'll obviously never happen.